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written on Wednesday, July 10, 2013 @ 9:55 AM ✈
越长大，越懒惰。 我也不懂自己是怎么搞的。 Trial 还剩下不到2个月，SPM只剩下118天。 都进入倒数时期了，我还可以悠悠哉哉地过日子。有时真的不得不佩服我自己。 Maybe I should go die in a pit lol 我真的不是那种可以在家坐静静的人，无时无刻都好想出去。 但总是遇到交通问题还有经济问题，真的好无奈 。 自己究竟几时才能摆脱rapid以及依靠他人的日子，真的很不喜欢麻烦别人。 undang听了却还没去考。pratical就等考完SPM才来讲吧，谁叫我年尾才生日…… 凌晨1点了，是时候睡觉了。晚安。 Labels: exam sucks, mood swings, school life 0 comment[s] | back to topcrap
written on Saturday, May 18, 2013 @ 7:22 AM ✈
I've be abandon my blog so long . It's gonna be a rotten blog soon. 迈入五月的第三个星期了，考试还剩下四天，就放生了。 倒数178，亲爱的SPM。 五月真的很难熬。真的是不知道走什么衰运，唉。 生病病了好久才好。 有人说：生病的时候才知道谁最疼你。我没人疼，没人关心，算了吧。 头发一直被捉，尼玛的根本就没超长好不好，乌鸦你的眼睛打鸟了吗…… 就这样我的分数被扣了好多分。 友情爱情两边失意。 友谊永固什么的根本就是holy shit ! 以前没交通出门时一直找我帮你们找交通。现在别人提供交通了就把我丢在一旁。 很好啊，我真的他妈的佩服你们。wechat 都是你们的合照，facebook都是你们的check in。*come I clap hands for you* 我们都回不到从前了。 分手了104天，你最近过得还好吗？ 想你有什么用，爱你有什么用？你都不爱我了…… 只怪自己陷得太深，难以自拔，才会导致今日的结局。 Forever is just a lie. Nothing last forever. fts Labels: exam sucks, mood swings, school life, you're mine 0 comment[s] | back to topstressful
written on Tuesday, April 16, 2013 @ 4:14 AM ✈
爱你的第122天。你不爱我的第72天。
你最近还好吗？是不是也在思念里挣扎……
爱你爱得伤痕累累，可是你永远都还是那一句——对不起。
对不起我还是放不下你，对不起我很自私地想把你占为己有，对不起我的眼泪又情不自禁地掉了……
其实对外我不愿意承认了我失去你的事实。当别人问起我和你的时候，我只能一笑而过。真正知道我们的关系的，只是几个比较亲近的好友而已。
还有一星期就是你的生日了，或许我连祝福你的资格也没有……
sorry that I love you.
学校年中考试，还有23天。
23天，看是很长，实际上只是很短而已。
我有13个科目要啃完，其中10个科目还要啃中四的。来不及了 真的来不及了……
我真的还没开始温书，还没开始啃书。每天做工课已经够忙了，哪有多余的时间让我来温书啊……
对学校很厌倦，根本没有一股想让我上学的动力。功课永远堆积如山，永远都做不完。每天夜睡早起，睡眠时间只有区区的4小时而已……
谢师宴，舞蹈表演。
我承认我没有舞蹈细胞，肢体僵硬。就连一个简单的舞步也跳不好。
谁叫我是一个头脑简单，四肢发达的人……
每次练习时感觉压力很大，身边的大都是有些舞蹈底子的，抑或者近期有接触到舞蹈的。我离舞蹈的最后一次应该是去年了吧，好失败……
都是我的错让你们被骂。都是我的错让整组舞蹈看起来很怪异。是我自己不会跳，四肢僵硬，对不起……如果可以的话真的很想选择退出，我不想拖累你们，更不想拖累整个班。
抑或是，也可以退学吗……？
我累了，真的很累了。
这种生活真的很压力。我只求快快毕业好让我离开这种生活。
你懂吗？我快支撑不住了……
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written on Thursday, March 21, 2013 @ 5:52 AM ✈
I am not a positive person , like seriously.
What's on my mind are all negative thinking. I can't stop thinking those negative things although I always console people around me not to be negative ...
Recently , results is the suck-est things ever !
I SHOULDN'T BE IN SCIENCE STREAM BECAUSE I'VE NEVER PASS MY BIO CHEM & PHYSICS SINCE FORM 4 TILL NOW.
How fail I am ...
and I don't even have the qualified to be a Chinese. My Chinese fail again . fuq.
And yet ,I am such a failure. Fail in everything.
Relationship , friendship , family.
I've tried very hard to fix back our relationship . I never missed a night for sending you goodnight messages. I miss you every second and I love you even more than you could imagine .
Can you just care about me a little more ? Just a little more that I ever ask for ...
I won't give up however the path is tough .
Keep viewed those old messages and make my tears rolled down ... I miss the way we used to be . All I want just like before , happily and after. Can it be real please ...?
Sorry maybe I'm the one that transparent. I have no true friends at all.
No one will give me support and help when I need the most. NO ONE. And yet I gain no trust from you guys , so you guys anti me for group project . How great is it ?
I felt that I am not belong to you guys group. I'm the one that left out.You guys keep hang out without me . And I can see you guys happier without me , isn't ? I should quit . Sorry for the way and the time I've disturb you guys...
Keep quarrel with mum these days...
Adult is always true and I as a child can't have the right to speak out my thoughts.
I am always wrong . ALWAYS.
Just let me disappear in this world.
I want to quit everything in my life . I can't stand it anymore .
I don't know what to do anymore. Just leave me alone...
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written on Thursday, March 7, 2013 @ 6:53 AM ✈
Finally exam is over. 4 days of torture finally gone. Lack of sleep during exam days. Just have about 2/3 hours of sleep per day lol My eye-bags and dark circle became more obvious. Save me please ! 还是用回华语比较好，英文太烂了。 
发泄最好的地方就只有twitter和这里吧了。
很想问问自己，多久没有笑了。发自内心的笑，似乎已消失很久了……
多久没有被重视了……
好久没有认为自己是重要的了……
突然发现融入不了你们的世界。
Wechat选择退群了，因为我根本搭不上话……
况且也没人知道我退群了。原来我根本没有存在感，我懂了……
我好像被遗弃了。原来一直被忽视被忽略的是我啊 …… :)
每次想找人倾诉时却找不到 只能自己压抑着。
我每一天都主动信息你，晚安信息绝对不会缺……’
最期盼的就是你的回复。
INYIMYILY D0003.
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